Learning from my Past to Improve the Future

So it has almost been a yer already that I traveled across the pond and went to Spain. But I still find myself reflecting upon that trip every once in awhile.  I think that I have taken more from that trip since I have been back than I really did while I was there.  Sometimes I have to remind myself that I was actually in Spain, and France.

Lourdes, France

But thinking about where I have been, makes me realize how much has really changed in the past few years.  I wouldn't change anything really because even though there have been lows, I have also found that it was through those lows that I have gone to different heights from those lows.

So I guess what I want to say is that: If you have been a part of my past, thank you for being a part of my life.  I would not be the person that I am today without you.  If you are a part of my present thanks for sticking with me through the ups and downs (or you have to because we are related by blood.... ;-).....) and to those who are going to be a part of my future, I'm praying that God will use me to help you and that you will help me.

Blessings :-)

Looking ahead

I think that all that I have talked about recently is looking towards the future.  But right now I think that is all that I really know for sure: uncertainty.  All I know that I need to trust in God and by doing that, things will fall into place.  Through this entire journey I think that there are times when I could have given up and just gone a different direction, but something keeps on telling me that I need to listen to God's call and I need to trust in Him and have the courage to follow His next plan for me.

Courage

Something that can always be worked on.

I've only been graduated for 11 days and I think I've been asked 10,000,000 times what I plan on doing, or what I would like to do, or if I have a job yet.  I don't mind the questions, but I think that I will love it when I have something concrete to actually tell them.

The truth is that I don't know where I am going to be next week, I don't know where I will be next month.  I don't know what will make me totally happy in the job world, other than knowing that by doing God's will on Earth will make me happy and content.  I know I don't have a job yet and I now know that it is much more then just writing a resume (that is only the first step of many).

There is much that I don't know, but I do know that I am on a journey and I pray that this journey that I am taking is the same path that God has planned for me.  I can only hope to do His will.

The footprints poem comes to mind.  I have the last quot on a little plaque sitting on my desk.

"My Precious, precious child, 
I love you and I would never leave you. 
During your times of trial and suffering, 
when you see only one set of footprints, 
it was then that I carried you."

Change

Well I graduated a week ago and I can't believe that I should be here already.  I think that I am horrible with change and I hate when everything changes at once.  But I think when anyone has to go through that we all have a road sign that tells us that we should be expecting it

Now wouldn't that just be helpful to have that sign. Now I know that if I had the time to reflect upon what was all going on in my life I would be able to understand that change was going to be coming.  But Because I was so busy with school and projects, I didn't have time to reflect upon what was actually coming in my life.

I am a college graduate, how did they let that happen? I should still be a freshman that doesn't know my way around the campus and still gets buildings confused (well when they change building names that does get confusing as well).  But I don't know how four years have gone by already and it is time for me to let go.

Albert Einstein says:

“Life is like riding a bicycle - in order to keep your balance, you must keep moving.” 

We have to know when it is time to turn the page and begin a new chapter of our lives.  While that sounds exciting, it also brings about the fact that everything that I have had these past four years I have to let go of and only take what I have learned from those experiences.  I know I shouldn't be afraid because I know that I am going to be guided, but it is the whole letting go that I need to do.

I know that deep down I am looking forward to this new chapter of my life, because I know that there will be exciting things that are going to be headed my way.  I know that if this was a book, it would make for a very good chapter.  But it is really only going to get better from here and I can't wait.  I know that with God's guidance and with my family and friends this is going to be a new chapter.

So let the page turn, and shall I never look back in regret. For this new chapter is going to be one for the story books!  :-)